sadness inside me
7:21 PM
Semestral break...i am very sad...instead of being happy because i'm gonna rest for almost two weeks...but it seems to very lonely in the first day..monday...i felt tired...i went with my lolo in the farm to give snacks to the farmers because they are harvesting...thanks GOD and it's a plenty harvest...nobody seems to be with me this sembreak...i'm so lonely..my mom went to their school together with my three sisters because they have a review for the mtap competition...it's been two nights that i am crying..i don't know...my mom also observed what is happening to me this past days..i just said that i am ok..but i'm not at all...i can't eat..i can't stop from crying,even my sister tried to stop me but not...i felt of being empty..i have so many problems and i thought i cant solve these anymore...i'm thinking of stepping to a new life...in heaven..
he?...i don't know what's up to him..i miss him so much but how can i tell him that i love him so much if he cant be faithful to me also...if he cant love more than how i love him...am i too dumb not to feel that's there something's missing..no matter what happen...i'm not breaking up with him...but it's always up to him if he will leave me or not..i'm holding on...it's been a week that we didn't talk...it's been a week that we didn't see each other...but is he also happy if he will tlak to me and see in...hoping someday that he will also come back..maybe he was just lost in the dark but i'll find him...no matter what happen..
he?...i don't know what's up to him..i miss him so much but how can i tell him that i love him so much if he cant be faithful to me also...if he cant love more than how i love him...am i too dumb not to feel that's there something's missing..no matter what happen...i'm not breaking up with him...but it's always up to him if he will leave me or not..i'm holding on...it's been a week that we didn't talk...it's been a week that we didn't see each other...but is he also happy if he will tlak to me and see in...hoping someday that he will also come back..maybe he was just lost in the dark but i'll find him...no matter what happen..
third day..it's wednesday and it's my lolo's b-day...i am very happy for him...i stayed in nagtupacan for two consecutive nights..and i am happy..i enjoyed in staying there because i met new friends..such as like him...him?..jejeje..he is studying in san fernando..he is so kind...and also makulit...god bless him..i'll miss those nights that we are happy chatting about his gf...not to mention his name anymore..he always make me happy..
thanks god and i overcome my sadness..because of my family and friends..they proved to me that enjoy life to the fullest..there are always events in our lives that will makes happy and sad..in every problem there's a solution..take time to realize...make things possible..pray to god..he is always besides us and watching over us..
-i-am-stupid-girl-
We can work things out.
We can work things out.